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Yesterday, Beth Lambdin posed the question: Who are you thankful for today?
I am thankful for:
Jenny - My best friend and inspiration. She brings me through hard times, laughs with me in good times and is forever faithful to the Lord - thus guiding me on my own walk.
Aaron - A devoted partner, loving father figure and genuine man that makes me melt every day with just a look.
Tatum - My sweet little girl who overnight has learned to read, make her own lunch and give her brother a bath but is still my baby.
Luke - His sweet and sour disposition keeps me laughing, crying and thanking God for the wonders of my children.
My Parents - All four of them for their support and love and guidance over my 29 years.
God- For loving all of me no matter what - whether I am in pieces or put together at any given moment 
My Friends - For allowing me to vent my problems and listen to theirs.
Who are you thankful for today?
Do you ever feel like you are slowly sinking in quick sand? First your feet start becoming heavy and you don’t walk as fast - then they are stuck in place like they are surrounded by cement - you wiggle to move but soon your knees freeze up. You shimmy your hips to try and break free and you feel the tightness rising up your body. Your chest hurts and you can’t breathe and you feel as if someone has a noose around your neck.
Vivid analogy huh? Well that is how I feel this week. I don’t know why I am in this gloomy patch - I am broke but that usually doesn’t put me in a funk for more than a day. I am snapping at my family for no reason. It can’t be the weather; I LOVE the rain and cold - but it hasn’t even been that bad.
I heard on the radio today “most women expect a problem to be solved immediately, we need to realize that sometimes we just get in a bad streak and we need to ride it out so we know what our emotions are telling us.” I guess that is it. Maybe my body is telling me I need to slow down. I burn up all my energy doing a million projects on one day because I am so like the other women who want it all done NOW! Then I burn out and everything I worked so hard to build crumbles around me.
Don’t worry my friends, I haven’t gone crazy and I am not depressed… I am just having a blue week and I’ll get over it
~Em
You may have a different opinion and that’s fine, cause this is MY blog, not yours - so here it goes!
I DO believe that money makes the world go ’round. I feel the happiest when I have money! I feel great when I can get my nails done, I love buying myself clothes, I like going out to dinner… but spending money on others makes me equally as happy. I LOVE buying my kids things, I LOVE buying my friends things and I LOVE giving to charity. A friend of mine just directed me to the blog of Beth Lambdin, in her latest post she lists things that inspire her. One of them was this… “financial rewards - I am highly motivated by what money can do for myself & others. I have many plans & dreams for my life as well as organizations, ministries and people I would love to bless in big ways. It inspires me to work hard, be creative, innovative and take risks.” (PLEASE VISIT HER BLOG).
In a second Beth inspired me to say “I LOVE money, it makes me happy!” and not be ashamed of it. The sad fact is I have no money, I’m literally scared to look at my online banking until I deposit my next paycheck because I might see a negative number. But please friends, let me reiterate, I LOVE spending money on others just as much as myself, I am not greedy by any means. I also do have a good grasp on budgeting, the only problem is I live paycheck to paycheck and there is nothing I can cut out (okay nothing I am willing to cut out) to actually be able to put money away. That is a major reason I am getting my teaching credential, a REAL job, so I can have money and be HAPPY rolling in it LOL - Here are a few other statements I can make proudly:
I am divorced and know that God still loves me. I had postpartum depression and took Prozac for three months and it was the best thing I ever did. I am jealous of stay-at-home moms. I can’t make a grilled cheese sandwich to save my life…
I never was “an open book” but as I grow older I care less and less what other people think. I am not getting bitter, I am actually getting nicer and this is a way of being nicer to myself, by being honest and not hiding behind ideals. It has released a lot of stress!
~ Em
(BTW the picture is NOT mine… just something I wanted to do at the time!) 
This actually happened Friday, but I had to share it with you. I picked up Tatum from school and drove down Mills to Lodi Ave. (a way I NEVER go because of all the traffic) on my way home. At the corner of Mills and Lodi I was waiting at the red light to make a right turn. There were two kids getting ready to cross in front of me. I waited for the kids to cross and for a break in traffic (literally like 6 seconds) before I turned. Right as I started to go, the car behind me also waiting to turn (a red pick-up truck with a young guy in it) started honking as if he was saying “come on you old bag… move that car!” I turned right and he flew around me in the other lane… I rolled down my window and started yelling some choice words at him - you know - just to prove I wasn’t some “old lady”! After I spoke my mind I rolled up my window and sped off. At the next stoplight the kid pulls up next to me and rolls down his window - I of course was like “oh yeah, bring it! You wanna throw down right here in the intersection?!” Once my window was down he calmly and politely says “I just wanted you to know that I wasn’t the one honking at you back there, it was the car behind me.” UGH! I felt like a complete moron, all I could squeak out was “sorry” - not only was I a complete b-word but I did it all in front of Tatum. Luckily she was too busy singing Fergilicious in the back seat to know what was going on. Control your road rage people - karma bites back!
Today is my daughter’s birthday. She is 6. But someone else has a birthday today too…
Yeah, that guy up there…. the smiley - he/she is 25 today.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TATUM and
~Em
Remember I said I should be writing my essay instead of blogging? Well I finally finished it! (Flylady’s anti-procrastination day) It was due today so I figured I better start. It took me two hours to think of a thesis, write the essay, edit it and submit it. Do you think it’s a sign of a bad a grade to come if you do in two hours what you were supposed to take two weeks doing? I’ll let you know.
* Note: I got a B+ on this, revised it and got an A. Yay for me and working under pressure!
~ Em
I actually woke up happy today… why? Because it is garbage day! No, I haven’t gone crazy (I’m already there)… You see, there are a few businesses down the street from me and they think it would be real hospitable to their customers if they didn’t clog up their parking lot with their own cars. SO they park them in front of my house! Every Tuesday I get a break from waking up to a HUGE SUV blocking my view because it’s garbage day and I barricade my house with the cans. See my pretty view today…
And this is my neighbors house… they obviously don’t know my trick - the third beast in is the offender who blocks my view.
Happy Garbage Day!
~Em
I DO have a thousand word essay for English and a “short” (not) project due for Child Development… but somehow I am here blogging instead of doing something advantageous to my education. By the way I love the thesaurus, so get used to big words
Thank you Becky for encouraging your gal pals to start a- bloggin’. Now my usless thoughts can be read by all!
~Em
